ONE NIGHT....3

Vanessa knew that Jason was talking to his wife.  She wasn’t stupid, just a fool in love.  He thought by talking to her in the kitchen, she wouldn’t know and would not be hurt.  Little did he know that every time he went home to her, or she came to visit him at the office, all she felt was pain.  She had fallen in love with him the moment he interviewed her for the position as his assistant.  He was so fine, with his straight white teeth, mocha skin, and brown eyes the color of amber.  I could tell he was attracted to me too. I have been known to turn a few heads.  Being black and Chinese helped a lot.  I had the body of a well put together black woman, but the hair and the almond eyes of my mother.

I can still remember the first time we made love. It was during the Colorado trip. I rarely traveled with him because it was not necessary, and there was no need to draw attention to us.  The last thing we needed was office gossip.  I felt guilty; I never wanted to be the other woman.  I thought women who had affairs with married men were whores and home wreckers.   That is until I fell in love with a married man.  Now I know how those women felt.  I was now in the same predicament.  The man I love is married.  I never pressure Jason to leave his wife.  We never talk about her, I never ask about her.  I love him so much that I am willing to be on the sideline for as long as he wants me.

I want to be with him as long as possible, which is why I am afraid to tell him I am pregnant.  This can end everything or he can finally see I can give him the one thing she can’t.

“I’ve been waiting for this for two months. “I thought I was not going to spend any time with you at all Jason.”  “and you promised me quality time” “I was surprised you asked for an assistant on this trip, you don’t really need me”.

“I know.”  “I needed to talk to you, and I figured this would be as good a time as any to discuss our future”

“Baby we can talk about that later”  “right now I want you to show me how much you missed being with me.”  “or at least let me show you how much I missed you baby.

I loved the way Jason kissed me it was so sweet, and passionate.  He caressed my breast, and trailed kisses down my body.  When he entered my body it always felt like the first time.  He knew just how to touch me and kiss me.  He made me feel like I was his wife, and that he was mine.

After making love to me he held me in his arms and I fell asleep.  I was so happy when he was with me.  I forget all the sneaking around and the lies.

A few hours later, I woke up and Jason wasn’t next to me.  I got up and put on a robe and went looking for him.  I found him sitting in the living area of the hotel room.

“hey baby, I woke up and you weren’t there.” “you know I cant sleep without you”  “whats wrong why are you sitting out here alone and in the dark?”

“I did not mean to wake you” “come sit by me, we need to talk”

For some reason when he said that, and the way he said it gave her a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach.

“okay baby what do we need to talk about?”

“you know that I care for you, and that the last thing I would ever want to do is hurt you” “this affair has been going on for almost 2 years, and I see what it is doing to you”  “I don’t want to continue using you”

“baby you are not using me I love you” “I am here because I want to be here”

“Vanessa let me finish, please”.  “I am using you, when we met, Donna and I were having problems and you came along at a very vulnerable time.” “ I was angry at my wife and I thought my marriage was over, but after the counseling and communicating with each other, I realize I love Donna more than my own life and to continue with this affair would end my marriage. “I’ve decided that when I get home I will tell her about us and hope to God she forgives me.” “I never meant to hurt you Vanessa.  I know that this is not what you wanted to hear tonight. But I think you need to find a man who deserves your love, and affection.  I have realized that that man is not me.” “I still care for you, and you don’t have to worry about your job you can work there as long as you want to.”

Vanessa did not know what to say or how to react. She just sat there frozen, her whole world falling apart before her eyes.  She did not realize she was crying until he mentioned it.

“Vanessa please don’t cry”

“What do you mean don’t cry?” “You are telling me that it is over between us.  You know that I love you.”  “You know that I want to be with you.”  “I told you that you don’t have to leave her; that I would be with you as long as you want me.”  “There is no need to do this”  “baby please”

“Vanessa please, doesn’t make this harder than it has to be, I’ll be going back to my room tonight.” “From now on we will have a strictly professional relationship.”

He was pulling on his shirt on and walking to the bedroom. He started picking up his clothes and stuffing it into his carry on

“Baby please, we got a good thing here.  We love each other”

“Vanessa I never said I loved you. I never led you to believe that I loved you or that I was ever going to leave Donna”

“Stop saying her fucking name”  “Donna this Donna that”  “You forget that Donna had no time for you.  Her career was more important than her marriage” “Your precious Donna forgot to tell you that she could not have any kids...

“We can adopt.” “She has realized that her marriage is more important than, her career.” “At this point Vanessa all this is not necessary. Its over”

He picked up his bag and headed to the door.

“Jason please baby, I love you, and I need you I can’t make it without you.”

He had his hand on the door knob, about to walk out of my life, and shatter my world, and leave me.

“You can’t leave us.”  “Jason, we need you”

“What are you talking about Vanessa, what do you mean by us and we?”

“I’m pregnant Jason; I’m having your baby”

A look of shock and utter disbelief washed across his face.

“A baby?”

“Yes Jason, a baby, our baby, your baby”

He dropped the suitcase and walked over to where I was standing, and dropped to his knees in front of me and placed his hands on my hips and put his head on my belly..

“A baby, Vanessa, you’re having my baby.”

“Jason the one thing you ever really wanted I’m about to give that to you.”

He stood up and kissed me, hard and deep.  That’s when I knew, he would never leave me, and that I was about to have the family that I deserved.  And little Donna was about to have the rug pulled right out from under her.