ADDICITTED TO BIG DICK MEN PT.1

SO I AM A 21 YEARS OLD BLK MALE...YES I AM A MAN VERY ATTRACTIVE MALE MIGHT I SAY THE PICTURE I WILL AD TO THIS POSTING IS ME.... SINCE THE AGE OF 2 I HAVE BEEN MOLESTED BY NUMEROU MEN THROUGHOUT MY LIFE...A LOT OF PEOPLE MAY NOT BELIEVE SOME PEOPLE ARE JUS BORN WITH GAY TENDACIES BUT I FOR ONE WAS ONE OF THEM.....AS A CHILD A LOT OF MEN TOOK MADVANTAGE OF ME  NOTICING I WAS A LIL SOFTER THAN THE OTHER BOYS....ANYHOW UNTIL THE AGE OF 14 I HAD NEVER HAD SEX WITH ANYONE WHO HADNT BEEN A FAMILY MEMBER.....BY THE TIME I HIT PUBERTY IT WAS A WRAP....I HAD TRIED TELLIN MY PARENTS ABOUT THE MOLESATION I WAS BEING SUBJECTED TO BUT WHERE I COME FROM IT WAS JUS HARD FOR MY STEP FATHER TO RECOGNIZE HIS NEPHEWS WHERE SUM ASS FREAKS....SO I STARTED TALKING ON TALK LINES TO OLDER MEN......IT WAS ALWAYS SOMEONE OLDER I SEEK AFFECTION FROM...I BEGAN SNEEKING OUT THE HOUSE MEETING UP WITH THESE MEN OLD ENOUGH TO BE MY FATHER OR BIG BROTHER AND LETTING THEM USE ME FOR THEIR SATISFACTION..I WAS SEEKING LOVE BUT INSTEAD WAS CONTINUIOUSLY LOOKING AND ALL THE WRONG PLACES...I WOULD CALL ME OUT PHONEBOOKS WHO LIVED AROUND MY NEIGHBOR HOOD, IT GOT TO A POINT IN LIFE  WHERE I BECAME DEPRESSED BECAUSE I COULDNT UNDERSTAND WHY ALL EVERYONE WANTED WAS SEX...NEEDLESS  TO SAY I RECOGNIZED HOW ATTRACTIVE I HAD GOTTEN AS I GOT OLDER AT THE AGE OF 18 I STARTED USING MEN FOR MY BENEFIT.I BECAME AN ESCORT...TO THIS DAY I HAVE TO ADMIT WAT MADE ME STARTED WAS THE IDEA OF HAVING SEX WITH ALL THESE BIG DICK MEN AND GETTIN PAID FOR IT.....NEEDLESS TO SAY THAT WASN'T THE FACTOR...IT TURNED OUT ONCE I EXPOSED MYSELF TO THAT ENVIORMENT THE MEN WERE GOING AFTER MY DICK INSTEAD OF MY ASS WHICH WAS SOME WHAT COOL TO ME BECAUSE I FELT AS THOUGH I WAS THE ONE USING SOMEONE FOR A CHAANGE...SO I STARTED TO REALIZE MY ADDICTION TO SEX WAS A LOT STRONGER THAN I IMAGE I FIND MYSELF CRUSING ADULT STORES MY GOOD LOOKS AND CHARM WILL ALWAYS CATCH ANY MAN OFF GUARD WHO'S ALREADY ON THE PROWL SO FINDING DICK WAS SUMTHING I COULD DO QUITE WELL...BUT AFTER THE SEX I ALWASY GET A FEELING OF DISGUST AND ANGER TOWARD MYSELF.. A LOT OF TIMES I WANNA BLAME THE PEOPLE IN MY PAST FOR TURNING ME ON TO DICK AT SUCH AN EARLY AGE. MY QUETION FOR YOU GUYS IS HOW DOES ONE FIGHT THE URGES OF THE DICK?