SECRETS INTRODUCTION

Introduction I know having an affair with him is wrong, but I cant help myself. If my family ever finds out what I’m doing, they will probably disown me, but there is something about him that makes me dismiss those thoughts when I’m with him. Standing at 6’3, dark skinned with grey eyes, and a body that will make any woman lose her religion, he is hard to ignore and the fact that he is forbidden fruit makes him that much more irresistible . As I’m driving to his house, all I can think about is how he makes me feel. He fills the void that’s been in my heart since my father died and he knows what I’m feeling without me having to tell him. I know that I can depend on him for anything whether it be mentally, physically, or financially and that’s why its breaking my heart that I’m on my way to tell him that things are not working out. I finally arrive to his home and I knock on his door. I’m dreading telling him that its over because deep down inside I know that he is my soul mate, but at the same time I don’t want to be the cause of my family disbanding. The thought of me living without him is tugging at my heart even though we have had to keep our relationship a secret. After what seems like forever he finally opens the door. I’m looking at the ground because I cant bear to look him in the face. Sensing that something is wrong with me, he grabs my hand and walks me into his house. That simple gesture is making it harder for me to come out and tell him what is on my mind. Once inside he wraps his arms around me and tells me that everything is going to be okay. Inside my heart I know everything is not going to be alright. Not wanting to stall any longer, I pull away from his embrace. “I cant be with you anymore. My family would be hurt if they found out what I’m doing with you.” I tell him hesitantly. Sighing deeply he responds, “What made you all of a sudden change your mind?” “I guess it’s the fact that I’m betraying their trust and how I walk around on egg shells around them because I’m afraid that they will find out about us. I cant continue to lead this secret life anymore. Its time for me to put their feelings before mine and think about how their lives will be infected if the truth ever surfaced. I don’t want them to disclaim me.” “I don’t think they would take it that far.” “Really because I know they will once they find out that sleeping with my mother’s fiancé .”