all because of you

MaLiCe i dont wanna come home and find out that i dont have one, and i dont want no1 in my house while im gone you hear me? Shere stopped and looked her son in his eyes she could see he was getting older and she knew she didnt have to worry as much, but that still didnt stop her from laying down ruLes Oh my god Mamom what ima do? Nuthin you know already know ima b cooL as long as that tryfLin ass ciara stay @risha house... shere= whatch yo damn mouth ya'll need 2sTop all that damn cussin didnt niqua tell you bout that? i apologize ma im just sayin: She the one you need 2b worried about not me, you know her she'lL have people all up and through here. Ya'll need 2stop all that i do not like this sibling rivalry bullshyt thats goin on between my kids what the fuck is wrong wit ya'lL? Ya'll are sisters, and brothers and ya'll better start actin Like it you understand? MaLice Listened 2every word she said... but like air it went in one ear and out the other.... Aight aight ma, just go enjoy yourself i'lL b cool he said givin his mother a hug and a kisS before giving her time to elaborate he, picked up her bags and proceeded to load her and his Lil brother ZauniE's things into the car so that they could hit the road to vegas. Malice could hardly wait he was so anxious to be grown @14 that he didnt know what to do, and this was his chance to finaly taste tha adult life. Standing in the garage waving his mother and brother goodbye a wicked smile crept accross his face as he invisioned what he was about 2do, letting down the garage he walked into his room, turned his cell phone on silent, tOoK his cloths off laid back on his mattres he called a bed: his dick instantly got hard he grabbed a handfull of vaseline, and began a combination of strokin his dick pinching his nipples and massaging his balls just the thought of him reaching his climaX was enough 2make him buss his thick creamy nutt all over his self before he knew it he was there for 45mins and still had not came so he took a break looked @his phone seen he had a few missed calls. He laid back down only this time he stroked to a porno oooooooooh shyt!!! Malices yelled as he felt nutt oozing out of his dick his body began to jerk and his face scruntched up ahhhhh. He got up and proceeded to take a nice hot shower he would always stay in the shower for atleast an hour with the water scorching hot he knew he had a problem, and felt as if he was dirty and the shower was the only way to purify him and wash away everything, (Dooooom) the doorbell rang interupting malices thoughts and his shower, wrapping a towel around his body... this better be some1 important malice said opening the front door. His whoLe attitude changed when he saw the notice of eviction on their bar door unlockin the dead bolt malice quickly snatched the piece of paper with all his might as if it weighed 1000 pounds Malice felt sick as he read the eviction notice that read notice to pay, or quit in big black bold letters. he let his 6 foot 1 frame sink into the black leather couches in tha living roOm as his mind moved a mile a minute, he cursed his self malice felt like he played a part in the reason why they were in this position, just a few months earlier malice and his mother had come home from a relatives house that was nearby, shere was drinking, and when she drunk it only tooK the slightest thing for her to wild out. Shere was into it wit sum big head bitch she knew from back in her wild days, it had came out that the bitch was sleepin wit shere's man, needless to say the bullshyt escalated. next thing i know tha brauds niece is callin out fades hahaha... why did she do that? Sum how all of this got back to Shere and she pulled up, hunked for me to come out i never knew a thing what had transpired, where we were goin, or what we were goin 2do, but as soon as we went down their dark street i knew just where we were headed i just shook my head and got out the car i couldnt turn back we we alread here, and now i knew what it was all about Shere= go knock on that door and ask for deana I got out of the car and headed towards the door i had no time to think or ask questions. Sum ugly bitch answered the door lookin like a true life crack head she was short fatt with baggy eyes nappy matted hair with the nastiest body one could imagine. Is deana here? I asked LooKin back @mamom who was still inside her car No, she aint here who are you? Im boss i said not wanting her to know my name cus i didnt need no one knowin my name when tha drama cracked off cuZ people love to call tha po'po these days. No later than those words left my lips i could hear mamom walkin up on the lady talkin shyt puttin her finger in old girl face i just posted up against tha wall on the porch and listened to mamom carry on, the lady just sat there trying to keep the peace, out of no where i hear a male voiCe saying yall still trippin off this old shyt, thats when i turned to put a face wit the voice. It was her son and i just kindly let 'em know its new and to shut tha fuck up While all this is goin on mamom has her finger all in the braud face callin her everything but a woman of god. All i saw was a arm, and that was my cuE' i rushed that nigga givin 'em left rights all in his face, i backed him all tha way into his house, Right beside me i see mamom over there given his moms tha muthafuckin business all i could do was laugh, i had him up against the fire place fuckin his shyt up, while mamom had that bitch on the ground maxin her out, they were throwin vaces and all kinda shyt i just kept hearin glass behind my head. But i never once felt a thing. Their house was so damn duRty i mean it was shyt everywhere i mean bikes cards just clutter, and junk. I end up slipping mind you i wasnt prepared for this i only had on socks, but as soon as i fell i got up and we left... all i could hear was that bitch nigga talkin sum shyt bout a heat, and his moma yellin call tha poliiiiice @ tha top of her damn lungs. I laughed the laugh of a menace, while driving off her son appeared in front of their garrage with a black thing that was supposed to be a gun in his hand pointing it i let 'em know if he shoot he better finish me, cuz i was 4damn sure gone stank 'em if he didnt We pulled up @home and i noticed a slash of thick dark blood on mamoms shirt accross her chest she sumwhere inbetween all the ass whoopin we did that bitch managed to cut her. I pointed it out to her she just looked and replied that bitch cut me? Walking in tha house my sister niqua jumped up as if she knew sumthing had transpired, she had just gave birth 2my niece syrai about 4months prior, she was ready to fight, but @tha time that wasnt the best idea considering that i hurd tha lady scReamin call tha poliiiiice we all just agreed that it was far from over. March 1, 2006 5:45 p.m (Doooom) our door bell chimed niqua Looked out the peep hole to see 2police men standing out side tha door panicking she ran down the hall to mamoms room whispering its the police do i answer it? Shere was so nervouS she sat there for a while 2think as they continuously rang our door bell as if they knew we were inside, and they were not leavin til we answered no, yes answer it The police officers came inside searchin every room no sight of mamom Thinking quick i told mamom to get into the shower i closed tha curtains and acted as if i was taken a shyt tha police oficer was right on the out side of tha bathroom door he wanted to speak 2me i agreed, and thats when mamom came out, i knew from there she would b goin to jail, he asked her a few questions, read her her rights, hand cuffed her, and took her off to jail and she couldnt press charges becuase tha po'po said "she shoulda called when it happened" As soon as they put her into the back of tha car heavy snow started too fall i'lL never for get it it was her birthday imagine that, but tha killer part was her charges home invasion assault with a dealy weapon and sum mo shyt, that bitch sung like a damn biRd she gave up eveything she knew on mamom i couldnt believe her and her son on paper. From then niqua had to step up to tha plate and pick up where mamom left off one thing i remember about that march is it was cold, but through it all we were straight niqua made sure we were stocked wit food and all that good shyt all while taken care of her own, thats my heart she never once complained or showed any emotion. Once we found out what she was up against we tried our hardest to get her a lawyer askin all our good for nothin family for help, my grandma end up comin through, and about a month later mamom had a court date. niqua sat in court while i stayed in tha car with my new born niece, niqua came out smilen mamom was gettin out today we both smiled and in unison we said they mad while laughin. mamom took a deal she was lookin @all of 13years she ended up with 3years probation and a crayz amount of community service and oh how can i forget? Anger management But we were elated she was comin home it was a month and sum days after her birthday, but we still set up tha house like it was that day we had balloons cake all that Me and niqua sat outside of west valley detention center waiting 4mamom to come out she looked so happy she hopped in the back wit her grandbaby, we all were in a place of joy me and niqua bopped our heads hard to the music as remy ma spit "the girl is not to b fucked with see idgaf its not a pussy on this planet that cant be fucked" We hadnt even thought about how we would loose our section 8 there for we would no longer b able 2afford our 1200 rent. Snapping out of his thoughts malice quickly picked up his phone 2see who was callin he quickly sent it to voicemail it was darryl he had no patience for his shyt @a time like this Pickin up tha house phone he dialed mamoms number so quick he could still hear tha numbers being processed on tha phone long after he was done dialing Hello... mamom spoke into the reciever as if she was being bothered, i knew she was gambling because i could barely hear her over the loud as slot machienes. Mamom we got a eviction notice man what are we gonna do? Shere= what it say? Malice read it out loud than let out a deep sigh he felt as if tha weight of tha world rested right on his shoulders Dont worry bout it we'll be ok ren gone work sumthing out wit me... (ren was our homes owner) ( MaliCe) I stopped goin to school i just gave up i no longer cared. One night i contemplated suicide but decided against it because i wasnt that crayZ to inflict pain on my self... around this time so much was goin on i didnt know what to do i had problems of my own and i needed to address them i'd tried 4so long to run from them, but now it was like a urgency i felt so vaccant and i needed to talk, so i used my pen to do so i wrote niqua a 4page letter buy now she had moved out and her and mamom were not speaking i just poured my heart and soul out in this letter and told her how i felt and it was a secret messgae in tha letter that i knew she wouldnt get if she didnt pay attention and i was right she actually read it a few times b4 she got what i was trying 2tell her. By then i was @my grandmas house with mychillen my phone rang it was her and she was asking me about the letter if i was ok and what it meant? She said are you... 2b continued